Writing of chapter 4 commences. As I sit here on my living room floor with all my research and many books circled around me, I glance over it all and think. How on earth am I supposed to cram all this information into a chapter? With so much information how do I organize it? Where do I even start?!
For the 100th time I carefully look over everything that I have collected through research. I begin to circle things I deem worthy and important and also write notes by other things that I may want to add to previous chapters or later chapters. Prior to starting chapter 4 I sat and went through what I had to make an outline. This detailed outline goes up to a certain chapter, which allows me to look back and see what my thoughts were for each chapter. And any additional notes I had thought at the time.
Once I actually sat down and looked over my outline for chapter 4 I knew I was ready. I put on some Kenny G and George winston to get my thoughts flowing. Before I knew it, words were streaming on the computer and the beginning half of chapter 4 was born. I called my Mother and asked to read her the first paragraph, just to make sure that I was on the right track with nailing other people's personalities. Yet again she said I was spot on. It really baffles me how I am able to accomplish this still. I am now finding that with added dialogue's of persons I never knew, I have to try to sound like them! Which I want to try to stay true to, since some of my readers will have had some relations with the persons that the characters are based on.
Just as the chapters before it, I am finding ease in writing it.
Sitting down at my computer after a long day at work, full of enthusiasm to keep writing. I open my word document to find that nothing had saved. I was mortified and felt as though a piece of myself had died along with the words that no longer blinked back at me. None of chapter 4 remained. It was as though I had never written it. Was I losing my mind?! I went back to recent documents opened and oddly enough it had no record of me ever opening the document on friday, Saturday, or Sunday to work on chapter 4. What the heck?
It would take a lot more enthusiasm to be able to sit and write another 8 hours worth of work. I desperately tried to recover the file or find a way to possibly bring it back. Discouraged and in disbelief I tried one more thing. Reaching out to my much more tech savvy friends on facebook, in hopes that one of them could help me possibly bring it back. I just didnt understand. I vividly remember hitting save, save, save after writing a sentence or word once my fingers left the keyboard. After the shock had worn away I began beating myself up. Why did I not save it to another place as well?! Why didnt I save it somewhere online?! WHY WHY WHY? I was so happy with what I had written and felt as though there was no possible way that I could write it again.
After long agonizing minutes Mychael came home and was able to clear up the unclear. I had stupidly been saving to a full USB drive. Go me. I had successfully made myself think I had lost my sanity for good.
For now chapter 4 will have to be reborn.
A week went by and my enthusiasm to continue on finally came back. It was only after the hardest week that I have encountered in writing this book ended. The bigger task was at hand. Remembering what I wrote and how to make it sound ten times more brilliant than the last. For the second time I encircled myself with my research and began writing. A week past and I was all caught up to where I had lost it previously. YAY.
January 14, 2012.
Happy New Year everyone!
The past few months have been a struggle and writing was an even bigger hurtle. Although, I have started to take better care for myself and outreached to all those who care about me. Things are getting better and writing has started once again. This chapter has proven to be the most difficult as it is very long and requires a lot of detailed attention. I have written 4 more pages, and all handwritten! Thanks to Mychaels parents I now have a large journal and writing planner to keep track and carry it with me, so the ideas can easily be written down. I have made goals and I plan on keeping strong until the chapter is finished! I mean who ever said books were easy to write!? I am hoping that the chapters to come are less as difficult to get through, but I know in the end I will feel proud about my accomplishment. Hopefully by my 23rd birthday this month I will have closed this chapter and started the next!
May 10, 2012
Chapter 4 complete!!!!!!!!!!!!!
For the 100th time I carefully look over everything that I have collected through research. I begin to circle things I deem worthy and important and also write notes by other things that I may want to add to previous chapters or later chapters. Prior to starting chapter 4 I sat and went through what I had to make an outline. This detailed outline goes up to a certain chapter, which allows me to look back and see what my thoughts were for each chapter. And any additional notes I had thought at the time.
Once I actually sat down and looked over my outline for chapter 4 I knew I was ready. I put on some Kenny G and George winston to get my thoughts flowing. Before I knew it, words were streaming on the computer and the beginning half of chapter 4 was born. I called my Mother and asked to read her the first paragraph, just to make sure that I was on the right track with nailing other people's personalities. Yet again she said I was spot on. It really baffles me how I am able to accomplish this still. I am now finding that with added dialogue's of persons I never knew, I have to try to sound like them! Which I want to try to stay true to, since some of my readers will have had some relations with the persons that the characters are based on.
Just as the chapters before it, I am finding ease in writing it.
Sitting down at my computer after a long day at work, full of enthusiasm to keep writing. I open my word document to find that nothing had saved. I was mortified and felt as though a piece of myself had died along with the words that no longer blinked back at me. None of chapter 4 remained. It was as though I had never written it. Was I losing my mind?! I went back to recent documents opened and oddly enough it had no record of me ever opening the document on friday, Saturday, or Sunday to work on chapter 4. What the heck?
It would take a lot more enthusiasm to be able to sit and write another 8 hours worth of work. I desperately tried to recover the file or find a way to possibly bring it back. Discouraged and in disbelief I tried one more thing. Reaching out to my much more tech savvy friends on facebook, in hopes that one of them could help me possibly bring it back. I just didnt understand. I vividly remember hitting save, save, save after writing a sentence or word once my fingers left the keyboard. After the shock had worn away I began beating myself up. Why did I not save it to another place as well?! Why didnt I save it somewhere online?! WHY WHY WHY? I was so happy with what I had written and felt as though there was no possible way that I could write it again.
After long agonizing minutes Mychael came home and was able to clear up the unclear. I had stupidly been saving to a full USB drive. Go me. I had successfully made myself think I had lost my sanity for good.
For now chapter 4 will have to be reborn.
A week went by and my enthusiasm to continue on finally came back. It was only after the hardest week that I have encountered in writing this book ended. The bigger task was at hand. Remembering what I wrote and how to make it sound ten times more brilliant than the last. For the second time I encircled myself with my research and began writing. A week past and I was all caught up to where I had lost it previously. YAY.
January 14, 2012.
Happy New Year everyone!
The past few months have been a struggle and writing was an even bigger hurtle. Although, I have started to take better care for myself and outreached to all those who care about me. Things are getting better and writing has started once again. This chapter has proven to be the most difficult as it is very long and requires a lot of detailed attention. I have written 4 more pages, and all handwritten! Thanks to Mychaels parents I now have a large journal and writing planner to keep track and carry it with me, so the ideas can easily be written down. I have made goals and I plan on keeping strong until the chapter is finished! I mean who ever said books were easy to write!? I am hoping that the chapters to come are less as difficult to get through, but I know in the end I will feel proud about my accomplishment. Hopefully by my 23rd birthday this month I will have closed this chapter and started the next!
May 10, 2012
Chapter 4 complete!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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